One of those

Today has been one of those days... One of those days that you're not supposed to blog about because it shatters the illusion that your life is perfect and that you can do just about anything in the world. And I might even regret having posted it. But my blog is called "Honestly", and honesty is what you should get when getting to know me. Either it is virtually or face to face.

I've been feeling ill today. They say that there are a lot of flues, colds and stomachflues going around, but I don't think that's it. I have a feeling it's one of those weird "me"-sicknesses that show up when something is bothering me, and that usually comes at bad times. I was supposed to accompany a friend of mine to a nerve wrecking doctors appointment today, but had to stand her up because I was ill :( I feel really bad about that. I really wanted to be there for her, but I couldn't. I've taken my meds, but still I'm just trembling and aching and feel like sh*t. If only I could figure out the cause of these illnesses... Then maybe I could prevent them from taking me by surprise the way they do - and screwing things up for me.

I've been planning to go to the supermarket too today. I've now given up on those plans. I'm not brave enough to venture outside on a day like this... If you feel like stopping by and making me laugh, please do. I'd love for something to break my transe and heal me. For now... Until I'm caught by surprise again... :(